well shoot.

So here I am, in the same boat as I was three months ago. I got fired from my job a few days ago, and I'm completely blown away. I was working as an RA (Resident Advisor) at an international school here in San Diego, part-time, supposedly 12 hours per week, and I was pulling about 30+ hours per week. When I got hired, I was told I'd be able to find another job in conjunction with this, since it was only nights 6-10pm, a few nights a week, and weekends. So... I ended up working so much at this job that I was unable to find anything else - then I get fired because my boss didn't think I was working hard enough. I talked to a free lawyer service here in SD yesterday, but for some reason they said they couldn't help me, I didn't meet their requirements. So... they fired me on Friday, and on Monday I was out, which means no more income, no more place to live, no job... I'm back exactly where I was when I moved back into the country.

I'm not sure whether to cry, to smile, to be angry, to lose hope... I'm staying at a youth hostel with a bunch of international travellers right now until my money runs out in about 4 days, then I have a car to sleep in. Each day I apply for tons of jobs, drive around and apply in person at others, and then each morning I check my email to find that no one has responded to me.

I am just - so frustrated. I am smart, I have a good track record, I have good job experience, I have good references, but it's like the universe is just set against me succeding. I don't like to complain, because it won't change anything, but I mean... life just sucks right now. When you have nowhere to go, and you're scared about sleeping in your car because it's illegal and you don't want the cops to get involved in your already-screwed up life... you kind of start to lose hope.

So that's where I am.