Holy Crap I'm in Australia

Well, my plans seem to have changed a bit over the last few months. I went from doing everything I could to get back to France, to realizing that it might be better to wait a bit, to having an opportunity to move to Australia for a year and taking it, to settling here in Sydney, in a cute little suburb called Maroubra, hanging out with Rebecca, her sister and husband, and their three boys.

It's been hard adjusting to the new time zone, to leaving the States, and there has been added stress from everything here being SO expensive. We can't find rent cheaper than $1200/month! And that's for like.. a shack.

To be honest, I haven't written since I've been here because there doesn't seem much to report. It feels like San Diego with Australian people, but everyone is driving on the other side of the road. I want my own place, I want a place where I can get away when things get too complicated here and when I don't feel like being around other people. I need a lot of personal space, and a lot of time alone, and I don't have that at all here, which is probably one of the hardest things. I want to listen to music, but I can't because I'm never alone. I want to go out with friends, but I don't have any. Sometimes I'd love to go somewhere other than the house, but I can't because I don't know how to get anywhere. I guess I can go to the beach, but that gets old soon. I guess after being unemployed for so long in the States, I was hoping I could come here and find work, but I haven't found anything yet. If I'm in a good mood, which I'm not right now, then it's fine.. I stay positive, but other times, like right now, I feel like maybe I didn't think this through well enoguh before I came. I have no idea what I'm doing here.. it's like France all over again. I know I hated France when I first got there, and I went through a long, drawn out period of mourning before I started to really like it, then I started to love it, and now my heart aches for it and I miss France every day. Maybe Australia will become like that as well... right now I just feel out of place, and unable to do anything about it.