What about the future?

J'aimerais bien savoir ce que je devrais faire avec l'avenir... Je vais déménager en Australie, mais après, devrais-je retourner aux états-unis? Puis-je retourner en France? Je préférais revenir en France honnêtement, je veux étudier français là, parce que je ne veux pas perdre ce que j'ai appris, et je me sens que je suis déjà en train de l'oublier. J'ai besoin de pratiquer avec quelqu'un, mais Rebecca a trouvé plein des écoles à Sydney où je peux continuer mes études, donc, pour le moment c'est pas grave, mais je meurs d'envie de parler français, je meurs d'envie d'être plus Français, je meurs d'envie d'y revenir et encore vivre... Je me sens vide depuis partir de la France, et je veux y revenir... mais je rabâche... Je suppose qu'il faut attendre, mais on ne peut attendre qu'un temps. Éventuellement je vais oublier la France, et je vais encore devenir américain, et j'ai peur de ça. Je vois, maintenant, tous ces problèmes avec mon pays, avec la mode de vie ici, mais je sais si je reste trop de temps ici, j'oublierai les problèmes, j'oublierai ce que j'aimais de la France, j'oublierai mes amis là, et je serai triste, sans savoir pourquoi, je serai mécontent avec ma vie. C'est déprimé! Et je veux pas ça! Je suis coincé...

I finally made some plans

Over the last several months, I went from being really happy to be coming home the United States, to very very frustrated at the fact that I couldn't find work or a way to support myself. It seems like bad things just keep happening to me, with great frequency, and good things are very few and far between. To add to my list of things that just keep knocking me down, on top of having no job, having my car getting broken into, having the insurance company not cover pretty much anything in the car, I found that a few weeks before moving to France, I had gotten a speeding ticket. I was never aware of the ticket, because I *moved to France,* and I didn't have my mail forwarded to my new address, (if I even could have done it to another country.) So I went down to the DMV a few weeks ago and was told that I had an outstanding ticket, a failure to appear in court over it, a revoked license, and a warrant for my arrest. Yay! I think at this point, I was just thinking "okay, fine..... everyday I wake up to something new that is worse than the day before, so it doesn't even phase me." I explained my situation to the DMV, that I had no knowledge of this ticket, and the reason it went unpaid for so long was because I was out of the country, and they let me leave as long as I promised them I would go to court and take care of it. I went to court a few days ago, waited for seven hours, and tried to explain to the judge when it was my turn, but he gave me the full penalty of $600, for doing 80 in a 70. I pleaded with him and got him to "reduce" it to $450, but.. it's still four hundred and fifty dollars, and it's just one MORE thing to add to my list of suck.

There are some good things to report though. Some GREAT things to report actually. Rebecca's family offered us two plane tickets to fly to Sydney and stay there with her sister. The job market over there is better than San Diego, and I can get a visa to live there and work there legally for one year. I'm excited about this, really excited, because I think it will give us the opportunity to jumpstart ourselves into a new frame of mind, being near the beach in a new country where everyone talks funny, and Rebecca's sister has been asking around and trying to help us a LOT to find work and make this transistion comfortable.

I think in all honesty, because we have a way to get there, if I can find ANY type of work there, it's a great option. It allows me to get closer to Rebecca and develop my relationship more with her, and also allows me to have a wonderful life-experience, meet new people, have new experiences, and finally find out if toilets really do flush in the opposite direction in the southern hemisphere. I have been researching stuff the last few days, and I'll be applying soon for the visa I'll need to get over there and work. I think we're trying to set a timeline of one to two months to get everything in order, and then we're off!

I'm moving to Australia!

Finally something exciting! I'm excited!

Fact: Koala bears drink Fosters.

FML

So I bought a $4,000 Honda Civic about a month or two ago. It's a piece of crap. It gets me from point A to point B and I've been very happy with it. Included in the package was a stick shift that actually fell off while I was driving, but I can use the metal piece to drive it, and a weird tire/brake problem that makes my car squeak each time I put pressure on the brakes. No bigee - it adds character. The third magnificent piece was an OLD after-market CD player that no longer played CDs. The radio worked, but I got commercial CDs to play about one in every twenty attempts.

My car got broken into tonight. It really sucks. They stole the deck, (the CD player/radio thingy,) and totally jacked up the inside of my car. They also stole my $700 guitar - one of my last valuable possessions. I'm really bummed about that.... Last week, a friend of mine who was leaving the country gave me a free subwoofer that cost like $200 or so, and they stole that too.. but it's okay, I didn't have enough money to install it anyway so it was just sitting in my back seat. My car still runs, but the whole front section is just a mess of wires, and I think they broke a few things as well. But, as long as the engine turns on, and the wheels move, I guess it just gives me something else to laugh about in my life right now. I think - with everything else going on - is a missing car stereo and a free subwoofer I wasn't going to use really worth getting upset about? They (luckily) didn't open my trunk, cause I have like $1000 worth of stuff in there, (where else am I going to store it?)

But at least some kids now have a deck that doesn't work at all, and a cool new subwoofer they can put in their car to make loud noises that will make them all go deaf. My initial thoughts were that hopefully, one of them will feel really guilty about it and decide to make some huge change in their life that leads them to go volunteer for the Peace Corps or something and make a difference in this world. Minus that, I guess they could all get gangrene, or have erectile dysfunction on their prom nights or something. :)

I wonder if my insurance covers this.......